I've seen lots of buzz in the past week about this Do What You Love post from blogger A Pair & a Spare. After reading it, I was all gung-ho, "Oh, yeah, I need to figure out what I love so I can DO it!" And then I faltered. What DO I love? What am I passionate about? Over dinner Saturday night, I posed the question to Curtis after briefly describing the point of the post. He totally scoffed at the notion and said, "You do a job that pays the bill. What you love can be your hobby." Then he went on this mini-tirade I've heard a lot lately about how Sean better not try to major in a pointless subject college like journalism, psychology, advertising, religious studies, etc. (no offense, these were our concentrations). According to Curtis, Sean will major in something he can tolerate, and even like, but it must be practical first and foremost.
This rant didn't exactly answer my original question, so I redirected his attention, "But what do I love?" We determined over pizza and beers that I love eating, writing, sleeping, reading, and being lazy, not really interests that are high on the pay scale, right? My husband is always pragmatic, but it was really discouraging to hear "No, Katie. You can't do what you love." This is a sore point for me every year around this time. I am mentally and physically exhausted; Spring Break is on the horizon; I feel discouraged and run over by uninterested students and unsupportive parents. I think to myself- "Can I realistically do this for another 20 years?" I hated high school when I was in high school- what was I thinking picking a job that would require me to go back to high school EVERY SINGLE DAY?!?!? Do I love teaching? Is teaching my passion?
In the original post the author says to find your passion it can help to ask yourself- "What's in my DNA? What have I enjoyed doing since the beginning of time?" According to my school days diary, for the majority of my elementary school years, I wanted to be either an "artiste", a "teachr", a "writr:, or a "modele". So I gave myself lots of options at least. But the only one that's realistic is teaching. I mean, I love writing, and I write for fun, but that's not a realistic full-time job for me. So is it possible to realistically do what you love for a living? Does it make me a terrible person to admit that while I like teaching, I don't think it's my lifelong passion? Is this just totally typical, and I'm making a big deal out of nothing?
So do you do what you love? And since this is such a heavy topic, I thought I'd lighten things up by sharing a pic of Lulu sleeping on my shoulder. She's such a sweetie!